mmm lush

dean has blocked me again on msn
stupid louise talking to him
SHE KNOWS I FUCKING LIKE HIM!
GAH!

like i mean looka what was being said last week:

Dean Jolly Louise Lowen just reminded me of a most epic poem and now its stuck in my head xD and my soul shall be lifted quoth the raven: nevermore! xD


20 December at 21 yessssss! :D personally I think the simpsons version trumps the original =p
20 December at 21:32Louise Lowen yay! xD i've been quoting it for days!

20 December at 21:Dean Jolly Haha! what like...randomly at ppl!? *walks down street* YOU THERE!!...once upon a midnight dreary as I pondered week and weary! *manic smile*

20 December at 21:35Louise Lowen lmao! noo, just like slipping into conversations xD 'Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December'

20 December at 21:36Dean Jolly so its some sort of sinister subliminal messaging! ...i like it! xD
20 December at 21:41Louise Lowen i think i did actually scare my mam at one point xD

20 December at 21:46Dean Jolly bahaha!! :D

20 December at 21:51Louise Lowen simpsons version! http://www.fanpop.com/spots/halloween/videos/2450364/title/simpsons-version-poes-raven
im so sad xD

20 December at 22:01Dean Jolly that coulndt be any more awesome unless we laminated the awesome to preserve the awesomess xD xD

minus the last few comments wtf! SHE NEVER TALKS TO HIM!
WTF WTF WTF!

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xmas :)

this what i got ayeeeee!

• Laptop ( had it since august)
• Both of the Take That books
• Cardigan
• Elliot Minor Hoody
• Hoody from New Look
• The Mighty Boosh Future Sailors Limited Edition Tour DVD
• Tim Minchin SO Fucking Rock Live DVD
• Public Enemies DVD
• Money - £70
• Dickies Backpack
• Bobbi Brown Make Up Voucher Thing
• Russell Brand Scandoulous DVD
• Take That Present The Circus Live CD
• Sony 12.1 megapixel camera
• Sweets
• Bath Stuff
• PJ'S
• New Pair Of Plimsoles
• Lee Stafford Shampoo
• SkullCandy Headphones
• Lady Ga Ga Ticket
• HIM Ticket
• Bed Socks
• New Underwear
• Body Sprays
• Starbucks Gift Card
• Bed Socks
• Socks
• Pens

and tomorrow i am hitting the sales to find:

xbox 360 games , Take That Calendar , Ipod Dock & DVD'S :D

it's actually

pretty pathetic that the majority of my film class are fucking lick arses and fail to be mature and accept other people's likes because they themselves don't like it. ergh film was shite today we had to do a quiz but i was in a group with leyla and emma we had the best questions , but when it came to answering them the other side of the room were like aw it's some asian i felt saying open your fucking eyes the world doesn't relvolve around you and what you like ffs just grow up nathan you sad fucking cunt your meant to be 18 not fucking 8.

also callum who feels the need to argue over what i find attractive in a man decides to make racist remarks like writing chinq on a piece of paper jesus you are narrow fucking minded you basically crawl up nathan's arse it's laughable tbh eee i love it when he argues with me though i have so many put downs for him but i won't say them because one of them is pretty harsh. well actually i'll share it with you lot well he calls pete doherty a tramp and my response to that would be atleast he can pronounce his fucking s's unlike you ahaha booyah!

basically this blog has been about my film class and how vile the majority are i needed to vent that last bit!

i really

need to get this off my chest before it stays there till i forget about it! , ever since sunday the day my Mother died has been on repeat in my head honsently it's horrible it seems like the date she died was just being dragged out over 2 days. the frightening thing is that it was too vivid , to this day i will always remember where i was and when i got that phone call actually i can tell you it right now; the phonecall was at 4:00am , she died at 10:00am , also the day before she died i could have visted her in hospital for the last time which was the 19th i didn't go as i had coursework. i wish i had of still she said my education was more important!

also on sunday my 4 year old cousin told my brother to go see my mother in heaven , my auntie fucking apeshite and so did my grandmother , my brother cried , i cried and my father was close to crying , i know he's only 4 and that he doesn't understand but honsenlty i have never wanted to hurt someone that bad before , seriously i just wanted to throw the table over and walk out. but i didn't i sat and cried instead how pathetic over what a 4 year old said jesus thought i was made of stronger stuff man!

i know i can't dance but i can dance on ya

today was really good , i woke up at 11 which meant a had a lotta sleep good times! , then at about 12 i made my to the chippy for my dinner the scary man who i seen last week on my to college was there i was like shitting myself honsently i had my headphones in so it was okay!

oh then i set off to leyla's she was writing her blog when i got there then she finally got ready then we deicded that we wanted to bake honsently it was random , then we met emma and went to ASDA but before this we got the majoriy of the cooking powder stuff for like £1.35 bloody bargin!

then when we got back we made our stuff i just made a mess really i can't bake cos i am so unorganised! ahaha then we sat and watched the x factor ahhh buzzing that olly's through man joe better not win then that means i lose my bet! ahahaha

currently i am watching the comedy awards so many shite shows have won already honsently who the fuck even watches outnumbered gah!

on the plus side i break up for college on thursday and i recieve my gifts as well! i'm excited oh and louise's gifts have went somewhere but i can't find them! i'll search sometime tomorrow plus i have to wrap leyla's gift!

oh and tomorrow the tree is going up good times we have the coolest baubles ahaha toy story bauble ftw! :D

pink plastic jesus on the dashboard

yo yo! today was good tbh i had double media first which was a howl as always we had to go on this website and type in our postcodes to see what products advertisers would sell to people within the postcode my was so bad ahaha it was mainly low's and mediums ahahaha :')

then i had tutor which is a huge skive cos i aint applying to uni till next year so i aint gunna bother with it till when i need to which will be this time next year! , then i relaised that leyla will be going to uni next year i will miss her like really really badly i only realised that she is leaving in just under a year or so i will be gutted when she goes. still i promise that i will see her as often as i can with the crew ahhh still at least not everyone will be moving away still alice is going to newcastle , idk what emma is doing and laurie is just getting a jobn or something! i don't know wether to look for a job that involves something to do with the field of work i wanna go into or go to tyne met on the coast road to do health and social care with all the chavs ergh. i'll have a think about it then on top of thius i have to get my science GCSE which i need oh it's times like this that i wish i didn't muck about in science.

after all this i sat on the computers and waited for leyla to finish english as emma had went somewhere within tutor. still bus journey home was a hoot ahahah me and leyla just sat and laughed about things and talked about festivals and such i really wanna go to a festival next summer like reading or something.

atm i an sat watching my take that dvd which is love ooooft how i want to marry jason orange among other famous men who are 30+ ooooft also i realised that i pulled a bloke who was 2 years younger than noel fielding so if it works on the 34 year old why wouldn't it work on noel ooooft i must i find him somehow when i go to London which i hope will be sometime next year or before hand.

also the Russell Brand Skinned documentary is on at 10 mmmmm i love that man i nealry met him if it wasn't for some obese fucking man! seriously i was so so so close to russell i coulda met him then that woulda ment that i met one of my idols but no some obese bloke had to be in my way i was gutted :(

to end on a positive note i am seeing bunny and the bull tomorrow should be immense paul king directed it he dorects the mighty boosh plus noel and julian are in it :D :D :D also so i moss from the IT Crowd i am excited to see it tbh :) kinda makes up for noel's tour being cancelled!

let's just see how it goes

yo! today was fun in a way but not as funny as yesterday ahah yesterday was really really good i took part in a massive photoshoot with props and stuff i really enjoyed it :) i wanna do it every week tbh :D

well today i had double film me & leyla decorated the wall with pictures we now own that wall. also we watched amercian beauty it's really good so far! plus lester looks fit in it as well as ricky fittz LOL :'), also i had english we had a supply so the whole class got up and left lmafo it was hiliarse.

oh and tomorrow i am going to town really early to do xmas shopping i have a few bits to get well actually i'll list who i'm buying for:
- Dad
- Alex
- Leyla
- Sandra
- Auntie Ali
- Auntie Cathryn
- Grandma Noreen
- Grandma Margraet

yeah i have 70 or 60 quid in the bank i'm not sure so i'll check tomorrow but i'll get leyla's next week i think, hopefully i'll get the majoritiy tomorrow though! :)

plus it's nearly xmas i am excited i have mainly asked for films and stand up comedy dvd's says lot really don't it!

ah i might watch the end of americian beauty before i go watch tv in bed!

i have so much to tell you

friends thing sorry if i offend!

Leyla- i love how smart you are , and how when i have a probelm i can come to you straight away no matter what the time is , i love how open you are with everything and how we can talk about everything and anything, i like how we have meet each others families and how we class each other as family as well as best friends, we've been through the good the bad and the worse. Also i like how we have been on loads of holidays together with our families i really enjoy them, finally i love how the majority of people think we are twins lmafo :')

Emma- i love that you aren't afraid to show emotions i wish i could be like that when you cried at the boy in stripped pj's i was like i wish i could cry at something like that. Also i like that you recommend me music which i usually wouldn't listen to on a day to day basis. However i don't like it when we fall out over silly things.

Alice- i have only known you a year but jesus christ it feels like more , i like how we can tell each other pretty much anything. However i don't like that you rarely come out on nights out and stuff.

Laurie- i have known you for a year and i like how we are friends but i can't help thinking that i don't really know a lot about you.

Ashie- i love that when we do see each other which aint very often we have a whale of a time , like when we met tim minchin and went to that shields festival and just made reet tits out of ourselves.

Louise- you have changed so much even i have begin to notice, you rarely talk to me anymore wtf did i do wrong apart from get stabbed in the fucking back by you and your fucking lies.

David- i like how funny you are and how we sit and talk about random babble and make up the best chat up lines ahahaha.

Dean- i have got to know a canny bit about you over the past 3 months, and we have only just starting talking face to face for not that long, but then all that just stopped things got awakward i didn't want to ask about her because i didn't want to seem to obessive, still fuck it, i just want things to go back to how they were , but they won't cos you have left college and shit now, and you won't see this thank god!

Nadine- i like how you have just returned back into my life , it takes me back to the times we had in food tech and year 11 they were good times.

soon we'll fall too pieces

just finished watching last week's never mind the buzzcocks ee it was funny , shame i always forget that it's on a wednesday but i have remembered this week! well a canny bit has happended in the last 5 days on saturday i seen elliot minor for the 16th time ahahah and saw my mates from darlo ahh i don't like the fact is the only time i see them is at gigs which is at least 4 times a year or something daft we have amazing banter. after the gig we waited for them but we didn't know that they were inside so we were outside in the freezing cold and ali didn't stop to sign anything so leyla was a tad gutted but i met alex for the like 9 millionth time ahhh he's lovely i remember once i was ill at one of their gigs i was 15 i think and i had to come home but i came back and got pulled pver the barrier inside because i thought i was gunna puke but afterwards alex asked me if i was okay now i was like eh how did you know i was ill?

anyways today was good i came in at 20 to 1 and leyla asked me to buy her some chocolate so i did , then she made a tower of bottles and put my can at the top and it fell and fizzed all over the shop ahaha it was quite funny tbh. then after dinner i had tutorial all 10 mins of it then i walked into shields with naliah and jill to get the metro which didn't take as long as it usually does. oh and today dean got his nails painted i was like lmafo your more of a woman than me, things have been a bit off with him but idk why we just don't talk like we used to it's weird still he talked to me today so it's all gooood :)

oh and my back has been playing up it really hurts i may have to take some pain killers later on if it gets much worse. i may post a picture blog later on because i haven't done one before!

i'm running outta words to make you stay

well this week has been rather up and down i have been tired nearly everyday i am having weird dreams and have started remembering things about when my mam died i don't like it cos i think it's not real and that she's gunna come through the door again, then i realise that she isn't, yeah i just cried typing this.

well enough of why i can't sleep at night , i am currently watching children in need seriously some of the stories are awww but others are like wtf there's people who are worse off and don't get the help they need. oh and i am talking to dean he's been rather off with me this week he siad he has been busy this week , still it was awkward when i chatted to him on msn on tuesday he was pissed off at something so i think i kinda added petrol to his fire then. still it's cush now.

ooooooo and last night i was in bed watching alan carr chatty man NOEL FIELDING was on it i was like omg seriously two of my comedy heroes sat talking to each other i was WOW WOW WOW plus Noel is cool he likes to kiss men when he's drunk but he won't go any further it was funny how he explained it with his hand like i'll have to pop a clip up! it was so goooooooooood honsently :')

today was okay minus english my teacher hates me i seem to be the only person that gets wrong for laughing no one else just me i am like wtf! ooo she boils my piss at times still alice keeps me entertained ahaha! oh and my maths just seems to be getting worse honsently i wouldn't be suprised if a 12 year old could do thw work i had to do today honsently i hate maths i go all tense when someone mentions it.

aww i can't find a clip :( but when i find one i'll post it :)

destiny is calling me.

ah today was alreet like my granny spent £96 quid on clothes for me and she bought me foundation which was really expensive i was like say what : , plus my granny said all this stuff about my mam she said that she doesn't like other people talking about her i was like awww, there's only certain people i can talk to my mam about.

last night was a tad awkward to say the least but i had a few drinks so that was okay i guess, and leyla made me ask louise all these questions ahaha my excuse was that i was drunk and vunerable, but what i didnt understand was why did she take those pictures on leyla's camera i thought that was a tad odd, oh and i barley talked to dean i was a tad gutted meh fuck it things will be next week hopefully.

oh and i am so so so so so bored i want a night out! like really badly i love a bit of drunken goings on in town last time i went out it was good ahahaah pulling a 34 year old and all that jazz :') gave me so much confidence i swear man ahahhahaaahaahahha!

ergh and i realised tomorrow is sunday which means i have double english first thing bad times oh and atm i am watching star stories i love that show :') it's the kate moss one which features johnny depp it's a piss take though but still mmmmmm depp is a babe :P can't wait till xmas i'm getting public enemies and a take that book off my granny :')

anyways i am going to keep on top of this this week oooft that sounded naughty TWANG!

i've been negleting this big time :|

well not a lot has happend since saturday i don't think! well on monday i had double english which is a joke tbh i hate i hate the lesson this year and we gto our assignments back i was hoping to reach at least double figures but no i just got one mark higher than last time i was like FFS! it's like everytime i do try it's bloody good enough! , oh then i had film , i like film minus half the class but we were watching a clockwork orange so it's all good , it's odd though because i have only seen the begining and the end until watching it in class.

on tuesday i had double media and i could just not be arsed to work so i basically sat and talked to emily about jermey kyle and amazing it is ahaha :') , then leyla texted me to get a time for parents evening for her i was like leyla forgot to get a time for film :O :O :O i was shocked ahahah :'), then i had tutorial it was alreet like i sat with leyla and alice on he computers and mucked around ahaha!

yesterday was like the funniest day i have had i think ahahah i came in at half 12 ish so i could have dinner with the crew! after dinner we went to the computers and me, leyla , emma and david were nattering about the last time we went out i was like mmmm i remember that was rather embrassing ahahah :'), then it was tutorial dean kept looking at me i was like mmm hello ;) then i had to stay back for a bit too see about this maths course so i stayed and rambled on to dean about shite ahahaha was good crack like eeeee he makes me laugh ahaha!, then we went to meet alice's friend nathan who calls himself verity bee he asked us to go do this shoot upstairs in the photography class everyone was pressuing me to go first ahaha. i wa slike i'll do it if someone goes before me so laurie went first and did her bit stuff, then it was me honsently i wasn't used to the lights it was boiling! still it was okay i think i was just a tad nervous which isn't like me at all!, oh and btw verity is a bit nice ;)

oh and today i have connexions meeting and i haven't done what i was suspposed to i'll do it now ahaha :')

good friends, well you can count them on one hand.

well my week has been rather good tbh i feel tuesday was the best day this week for obvious reasons! and yesterday was okay i thought the charity night was rather good i like people buying drinks for me means i spend as little money as possible. oh and yesterday other girl who likes dean found out that i like him so i was like oh fuck still can't help who you like we just happen to like the same person which is a tad complicated.

oh and last night i won a loada gear i won 2 bath set things, a haircut and a meal for 2 at the linidisfarne ahaha i wanted the vodka ahaha mmm i do love vodka and other alcohol related products blates not gunna have the liver of pete doherty by the time i'm 25!

and today i need to go to byker to get ink for my printer so i can photovopy my annotated lyric sheets for my c.w. for monday's english lesson so i can think of a hypothesis for my c.w. i only just thought of a question a fortnight ago : mm i blates ain't gunna fail this year but it's okay i'm not going to uni till 2011 cos i had a meeting with this bloke cos i honsently want to do this mental health nursing he was blates trying to put me off it the stupid bastard. seriously i hate connexions it was like happend in year 10 with tracey mell she blates just told me i couldn't do what i wanted to do because i was too thick. so yeah i hate connexions :)

anyways i'm gunna go get dressed and be on my way i'll post later no doubt!

i feel as if

i haven't posted on here in a bit i am sorry followers anyways today was okay i had double english i had to hand my essay which is 200 words off the word limit i hope i have improved on the last one cos i got 2/24 : bad times still i hate the lesson i have no interest in it anymore.

then after the first lesson of english me and alice sat in amigos cos it was break so we sat and talked about dean and stuff cos the other lass who likes keeps on giving me dirty looks i'm like "I'VE DONE NOTHING WRONG" gaaah the sooner she realises this the bloody better.

after english me, alice , emma and laurie went to shields to get bus passes and food and what not then we went to the co-op i bought heat magazine THE TORSO OF THE WEEK IS GERARD BUTLER YUM :P then we went back to college cos we are cool then leyla joined some shortly after that.

then i had film it was alreet i enjoyed the film mind i found tom hanks rather attractive in it i was like mmmmmm he looked well nice tbh :P still he's old but only when he's in the green mile he looks attractive ahahah! still i said days funny and leyla and april pure nealry wet themselves ahahaha ;)

i'll post later on cos my fingers are going cold ahaha!

Mmmmmm

I don't remember much from last night but i am not hungover so thats gooooood, but i was reading before on facebook and leyla said that i pulled a 34 year old lmafo :')

i didn't kiss him though cos of his teeth were missing ahahah still i think he has my number oh dear :| still i think thats all i did i honsently can't remember someone needs to tell me wtf happend!

Still Dean's going to wales today for a week i'm gunna miss talking to him on msn imagine when he goes away for goood! Still atleast he knows that i like him and i said we should do something sometime and he said yeah so yay :D

Ahhh i'll post later on when i find out what happend! :)

hoping for the best but expecting the worst

well yesterday was alright apart from my dad shouting at me for just about everything i was like stfu i cba with this , plus i was shattered so that didn't help , but last years xmas presents came yesterday from switzerland i couldn't complain tbh i got a small eastpack back pack it's nice and i got i diary i NEVER use them so y'know it weren't that bad.

then i left my grans to go to my other grans she had bought me ben & jerry's i was like mmmm she even got the right one as well, then i came back home sat and waited for the x factor the completely wrong people went it shoulda been lloyd arrrgggh he's so shit he's only cos lasses fancy him which is wrong!

after this i talked to leyla and you know who it was a pretty full on conversation but it was gooood man i swear he is just so easy to talk to about anything the conversation was filthy as well but filithy is gooood i was people i know could be more open about it really it's just me and leyla who talk about stuff like this and alice on ocassions still was good cos know one said ergh or anything so that was pretty cool.

oh and before i had just spent 4 hours on cleaning my room serious i had no idea how filthy it was i should really clean it atleast once a week now. so now i just need to hoover the stairs and have a shower but i really can't be fudged to move ahhaah cleaning really takes it out of me ahhaha!

currently though i am watching this stuff about take that on 4music ahhhh brings back memories of june when i saw them live omg it was the best thing i have seen ever it was just amazing!! i can't wait for the dvd next month i have it pre-odered! ahahahahah :)

but your hair's too short and your jeans are too tight

i am sat watching the x factor atm i looooove it this year minus lloyd, joe & rachael but apart from that everyone is cush i looooooove jamie archer though mmm he's a babe ;) plus his voice is just WOOOOW!

well nowt much happened today i was meant to be going out but no things fucked up argh people must learn to use mobile phones ffs! , so for a few hours i was just sat in my room on my xbox and watching the tele cos i am coool.

oh and i can't go to london next week cos my dad says i am not "mature" enough there may be a element of truth in that but i would be with leyla she's responsible and shizz meeer so i feel bad that she can't go argh! no one trusts me to go anywhere honsetly ah it's gay! still fuck it.

also my brother was being a little shit today seriously he can't shut the fuck up it's likeee argh as if my day hasn't already been fudged up enough i know he's only 8 but still he should learn to bloody behave in public!

ahhhh and today i only got to talk to a certain someone but only for a few minutes but he did seem gutted that he had to go so i left a tad special LOL! , but he said the nicest thing ever it was something like: " you are interesting you have a good personality and a good sense of humour" i was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwww! no one has ever said that to me before yeah i just smiled typing that! ahahhahhahaha :')

oh and next friday i have the option to go get mortal get in i'm going to take it and make a tit out of myself as per oh yessa roll on next friday! just need to gather the funds ahahahaaha!

then i set fire to our bed

honestly i don't think i have ever thought so much about one little thing like ever! well then again it's not really little or is it ahh idk but all i do know as why do people decide oh liv ramsey is doing something i'll just do the same cos you know not as if liv has over came a lot within like 3-4 weeks.

ahh i hate waiting i swear it just seems to go slower argh!
but do you know what all this is all new to me and that makes this harder so yeah there's all that as well!

but you know what the funny thing is idk wether she knows i like him but you know if she does thats just wrong of you to do that sorry pet but it just is!

ARGH! I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS!

come on lets fly!

well today i was up at 7 to meet leyla and emma to catch the bus to town as we were going on a film trip to northumbria uni eee my life out tour guide man was hiliarse he was ginger and irish and couldn't say journal properly i found it impossible to keep a straight face. eee then we had to look for books according to our c.w. subject so i left leyla down a isle thing with davey ahaha she wasn't amused in the slightest ahahaha!

after this we tried to go get a photocopying card thang but they had none left which was a tad of a fail as that was the purpose of thee trip ahahaha then i just sat down with nikki , sarah , david and darren and leyla was sat behind it was good crack!, then at 11 me leyla and niiki went to mcdonalds cos me and nikki fancied one ahaha! then we went to greggs with leyla.

then we got on the bus back to college it was cush i felt i bit giddy ahahah! think it was to do with the food oh then we had to go see our form teacher to see that we were in then someone was looking for david so he's kinda dead man walking lmafo! after this i seen the lad i like which was weird cos he said that he wouldn't be in ahahaha but he said something about him meeting his mate so that was okay. but one of his friends who he sits with kept giving me death stares cos she likes him too i was like i haven't done anything so TURN THE FUCK AROUND! ahahhaahah :')

oh and after college me and leyla went to town to go to newcastle libary cos we are cool but we ended up in hmv buying mr hudson albums then we walked to reflex and mr hudson was coming out of monument i swear leyla has the knack for spotting the celebs like we always see them before gigs and signings usually ahahah!, then we went to relflex they didn't have any mr hudson singles so we trekked to find an indie music shop to if they had anything but they didn't so bad times!

then we stood inside and waited for like 15 or 20 minutes and waited for him to get to us in the q then leyla was first she got her album signed for will i was like awwwwwwwwwww so she didn't get anything signed but she did get a picture! , then it was my turn i asked for my album to made out to olivia i always do that when famous people ask who it should be made out to he said to me oh thats a beautiful name and on my way out he said bye my darling i was like :D :D :D :D

oh and just before i found out that the lad i like is going travelling and isn't coming back! but i did ask him to come out with me sometime and he said yes so i was like! :D :D :D :D :D ahhhhh i am so happy happy! eeeeeeee :')

LONGEST BLOG EVER! :D & TIM MINCHIN IS ON JONATHAN ROSS TONIGHT GET OUT SON! ahahahah!

:D :D

i don't think i have ever been so happy like ever! ahhhhhhhhhh i have leyla to thank for this well i was on msn before and i was talking to the lad i like and leyla was helping me play 20 questions so i asked him a fair few and then he asked me some but there was one question i was dreding and he asked it so like i said to him i will answer every question honsently and then leyla said go on just say you, so i did then he asked me why and everything and i just said how i felt ahahahah.

so yeah today was alreeeeeeeet like media was just funny as fuck jane was just sat glancing at her pack thing for italy and i said something about dolimo sauce and we just sat and pissed ourselves for ages i went purple lmafo :') then before medi ai had english eeeeee my god it was funny we had to draw and mine and alice's looked as if 6 year oids could have done them i wish i had took a picture of mine it was just so bad.

oh and i have blood on my jacket but idk what the fuck was bleeding to get the blood on my jacket! and tonight is the best night for tele i reckon just simply because never mind the buzzcocks is on :D ahahahahahaahahahahahah!

oh i am still HAPPY thanks for everything leyla!
x

safety pins holding up the things that make you mine

i never update this EVERY day i really should anyways since i last posted not much as really happend tbh well yesterday i went to a elliot minor signing they have changed so fucking much bad times. they didn't even recognise me they usually do but never mind!

anyways today i didn't get up till quarter to 11 i felt so lazy! still i enjoy sleeping in now i never used to when i was younger. then i managed to be ready by quarter past 11 then i just went on facebook like i usually do then i left the house for about 20 to 12 to catch the 10 to metro.

then i had tutorial it was alreet actually minus people knowing i fancy and making it a tad obvious i was so embrassed ahahaha i never usually get embrassed tbh ahaha i am so shameless it's unreal. well my tutor said today that i could do a maths course cos i kinda need it for my career so me and the lad i fancy are in the same class and he said it was awesome when we were in the same class i felt really good about myself ahahah!

after tutorial me, leyla and olliee walked to the bus stop eee it was too funny cos olliee is on crutches and watching her go downstairs is a howl ahaha :') still she seen the funny side so it was alreeet plus it was raining and she nearly tripped over my shoe so yeah.

then i came home watched a bit of tim minchins documentary called rock and roll nerd online but it kept crashing thats why i hate watching things online it's a piss take! ahaha still it's interestang the documentary it goes on about how he used to do small small shows and how he got famous it's pretty inspiring so hopefully someone will be loosh and buy me it for xmas! ..... HIYA LEYLA ahahah!

yeah that was basically my whole day!

breathing in , breathing out the same

today was alreeeet actually i had double english first which i hate with a passion but second lesson was actually goooood :) me and alice sat and had a heart to heart sort of it was nice. oh and then i had a free so i went to shields with alice , emma , laurie and naliah it was alright we just went to get food but i like my walk into shields on a monday it relaxes me after being in a classroom for 2 whole hours.

then i had film but it was cancelled i was pretty bummed by that as i was one of the few people who actually bothered to do their essay like i mean a page is barely a stress and these people say "oh i love film" what a load of bullshit the only person who seems passionate enough about it is leyla and a few others. but then me , leyla , emma and louise went on our way to tesco was cush me and leyla had one of our heart to hearts so that was gooood i am serious she is like gok wan and therapist rolled into one i love that have someone just to tell all my shit to and then she'll help.

ooooooh and it is nealry xmas so i am excited considering i know what i am getting off the majority of my relations! still i am like a little kid ahahahahahaah!

don't you wish you ment something to somebody else

today an episode of only fools and horses get me thinking it's the one where the grandad dies and rodney says something to del boy then his reply was just a list of everything he was and matched exactly what i am like good/bad times.

well i didn't blog yesterday cos i was shattered well first i had double film i am enjoying the film it's called the green mile, then after that some woman came into tutorial and rambled on about UCAS and personal statements and what not ahahahaah. then after that i had media we finished watching somers town it was actually goood and i understood that the film was just one big advert for the eurostar considering thats all Marek's Dad talks about so yeah i felt pretty clever.

oh and ashie told me last night that tim minchin was going to be on jonathan ross next friday so that should be goooooooood! she thinks we'll get mentioned cos we behaved like tits in front of him i would actually piss myself laughing if we did. also it was his birthday when we saw him so yeah i bet thats a birthday he'll never forget ahaha!

and i just realised i haven't checked my bank this week so i'll do that on monday and on tuesday i am going to an elliot minor signing with leyla should be goood fun saying as she is missing out on the gig in november still i'll get her some shizz signed cos i am lovely.

finally emma i loved my friends thing you wrote about me it was beautiful!

cos i got too much life running through my veins going to waste

today was actually pretty funny especially media ahahah we had to write about a representation about ourself then the people next to us had to write one about us eee it was a crease hosently apprantley old gregg is my cousin 3 times removed lmafo :'), also me and leyla had one of our bit serious convos i like them it's gooood that i can talk to her about literally anything and she doesn't find it disturbing at all eeeeee i love that i can do that and hope she feels the same ahaha :)

then we had film eeee i swear i do nothing on c.w. day it's just erghhh! so then i sat for an hour and wrote like 5 bullet points waheeey! , also this morning i used the radio to listen to something other than music i know shock horror :O still i was pretty chuffed that i tuned into the right station ahhhhh then after waiting for what seemed ages tim minchin was finally on the radio it was a pretty good interview tbh.

oh and leyla sneezed on my jacket i was like cheers! ahaha we were creased for ages!, oh and tomorrow in media we are watching Somers Town i haven't even watched my own dvd in the house! still i like shane meadows films they are quality so goood times.

OH AND I LOVE THIS VIDEO ATM HIS VOICE IS AMAZING! he should just go on the x factor or something!

wew!

well today i had like a massiveee free till like 1 so i woke up at 10 so that wasn't to bad i guess then sat and watched tele went on facebook did a entry on here and such! just cos i can ahahah.

then at around about 20 to 11 i left the house to go to the bus stop seriously i take forever when i am not in a rush waited for the 17 but showed no signs of coming so i just decided get to the metro i LOLED when i seen a man with a bottle of wkd tucked into his bit solid coat!

when i got to college leyla and emma were already in hysterics when i arrived , then i gave leyla my heat magazine she wanted it for john and edward off the x factor i nealry pissed myself when i found out that their surnames were grimes lmafo idk why it was so funny though.

then i had tutriol i usually leave after about 10 minutes well not even that ahahaha! so i stayed for the majority of the lesson and pissed about with leyla about foundations and make-up and stuff ahahaha she is such a distraction then i nealry took my ankle off on the metal thang i was like owwwwwww seriously it hurt! ahaha

oh and today was a week since i seen tim minchin ahh i miss it it was such a good show man he got 2 standing obvations and it was his birthday i swear he was nealry crying at the standing obvations i was like awwwwwwwwwww!

i think this is the longest blog i have written tbh PROUD MUCH?

where she'll stops nobody knows

yeah i am sat in bed atm mmmm i is lazy but i got up at 10 today i don't have a lesson til like or something still i go in for dinner so i can see all my mates and have a bitta banter with them ahhh i love them all!

oh and today is a week since i seen and met tim minchin, and it's a week since leyla & will got together so yeah this wednesday is a special one LOL :') , well it's even more special for leyla but never mind bless her!, she's like really happy i don't think i have seen her so happy so it's all gooooooood!

anyways i best make a move shortly i cba to do this statement anymore but at least i have done something!

:)

ahhh i feel much better tonight than last night thank god! ergh last night was rank ahahaha! :') still i am over it!

anyways today i started my personal statement then all i need to do is get the plp thing from college then do that then hopefully i'll be caught up!

ah media was actually alreet the day minus the fact that i didn't finish my work still i'll hand it in next lesson!

oh and davey apologised to me today about being insensitive yesterday bless him he proper ment it as well i was like awww.

on a brighter note i am proper obessed with tim minchin i blame ashie, plus he's a babe i don't care wether he his a wife and 2 kids i just would ahahahah!

meh

it depressess me that that so called mingers have bf's!
wtf is wrong with me! serious well actually don't answer this
i know this is gunna sound cheesey but i want someone who will love me for who i am and what they want me to be!

still i have a feeling the above will never happen!
merrrrrrr :(

i know you want me

today was a crease as my first 2 lessons were cancelled so me, alice and david went on a walking mission from college to a graveyard to morrisons then to tesco. me and alice both bought magazines from morrisons then i bought i bag of fruit gums mmmm i love them! , then david wanted to go to tesco cos i wnated his chocolate milk thingy but it weren't there so i made him buy frigi he drank half then i drank the majority of the other half but it was sickly. then we got back to college and i put tim minchin on for david he thought he was funny but then i put canvas bags on for alice but the special people came over so we left amigos.

after that we found laurie and we all went shields and took the piss outta david for friday ahahaahahha! we were creased for ages, then we got back waited for leyla then we all sat with emma and louise. then we had film i swear i was going to bloody scream in that lesson as the teacher was was asking everyone what specific part in the film was emotional for them i felt like saying "FUCK OFF" but luckily he didn't ask me what bit did!

so yeah it was a canny day today!
:D

rough as

i went to an 18th last night and i was drunk as but i can't remember anything now i am paying for it big time. AAHAHA i must have made a reet tit outta myself still i do that when i haven't had a drink!

oh and yesterday i kinda lost it with one of my friends that is because i had such a shit day doesn't really help when your film teacher asks " what films can you relate to?" and i could hardly say ones about cancer and people loosing their mothers so i lied and said no. also in english we looked at this women's emails things she wrote before she died of cancer as well i felt like saying " CAN I JUST LEAVE!" so instead i sat there and hid my mouth with my scarf instead ahaha! so yeah after all that everything was just getting less bearable so yeah thats why i lost it everything was just building up inside! i hope you can forgive me!

x

AHHHH!

omg my auntie has bought me noel fielding tickets for xmas you will never ever understand how excited i am ahaha! eee he's my idol , style icon and inspiration :) i really really hope i meet him :D

and last night i saw and met tim minchin ee he was so funny i remember watching him on the tele ages ago he was funny last night mind i though my lungs were gunna fall out my side lmafo! oh and me and ashie made such tits outta of ourselves ahaha we never fail to i remember the time that me , leyla and ashie saw jason donovan eeeee that was hiliarse!

oh and i am pleased for leyla! she has found someone who seems lovely she deserves it her other relationships were a tad weird ahaha forgive me leyla ahahahah!

oh and never mind the buzzcocks is on in a few!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh gonna be good hopefully!

LMAFO!

eeee i can hear my gran singing through the door lmafo let's face it she ain't no beyonce ahahaah!

today i have like the shortest day of college i go in at quarter to 1 and leave 10 mins after my lesson starts but i am catching up on work at home so it's not like i am falling behind! and after that i have to meet ashie in town cos we is going to see wor tim minchin eee so glad i gots invited to go (:

oh and i am sure i have an obession with noel fielding again mmmmmmm he's a babe plus he has the nicest personality EVER! bless him i hope one day i meet him.

after this post i may do thattop ten celebrities thing which leyla did :)
OH LEYLA GOOOOOOOD LUCK! ;) you sexay beast :P ;)

wake up calls are getting boring around here

today was rather funny tbh by that i mean media emily said something about jay-z being a powerful figure in the black community it was one of them you had to be there jokes tbf eee still i was creased for ageeeeeeeeees! and i got totally dissed for my taste in men lmafo bless is not my fault i go for a bitta facial hair! ;)

oh and tomorrow i am going to see tim minchin it's gunna be gooooooooooooood :D
sorry this post is short my day really wasn't that goooood ahah!

live at the apollo

ee i love that show this one is one of my favourites like michael mcintyre is just amazing!
oh and the graham norton show is back on tonight :D with sharon and ozzy osbourne! should be good crack cos ozzy is just off his rocker lol!

oh and today at college alice wa sso hyper it was funny it certainly made english a crease aahaha! and me and emma went for milkshakes in thortons they were nice i had a mint choc chip one twas looosh!

also i have rekindled my love for noel fielding it never really went away like but i was watching interviews of him & the rest of the boosh in america and i was like mmmm, but he also has a nice personality and he's pretty generous as well his agency sent me a signed card and some dvd's which is being held in memory of my mother. i must thank him after the event!

plus i need to get more prizes for this event! atm i trying to get in contact with mark owen's agent i hope i get something take that related aahaha!

anyways i am going shortly cos well monday is usually good tele night ahahah!
x

ain't posted in a bit!

well today i was in cheltenham it was goooood crack and the people there are so stuck up lmafo! :') , oh and me , leyla and her dad sat in 2 lectures one was digital film and the other was film studies ooooft the teacher teaching film studies was a babe i swear! mmmmm.

also one of the films we began to watch in the digital film lecture was pretty good but we had to leave halfway through bad times!

and the woman in KFC couldn't speak i was like wtf it was like i was somewhere else for a moment and then i watched derren brown i was creased when the bloke was in a trance i was like wow :O but then he got his number thing wrong on the roullete wheel so he was just a bit GUTTED!

oh and i have ate so much today ahahaha! and the lass from essex has to go through on the x factor bless her!

" I Don't Trust So I Won't Get Let Down" - Secrets By N-Dubz

indecision makes a frown

i apologises for no post yesterday even though nothimng much happended apart from the fact that my english teacher expects me to write a 1000 worded report thingy, i really cba to do it plus i will have to do it when i get back from Gloustcher so i'll probs just take my laptop to my grans!

today was alright media didn't drag i think that was because we were doing something interesting at last and next lesson we are watching st trianians :D

and i have just realised i need to start my personal statement ahaha!

"I'll Be Your Medicine You'll Take Every Dose Of Me"

drop me a line

last night was amazing from what i can actually remember!
apprantley i went around kissing everyone lmafo only on the cheek though :)

i had a bit too drink plus i got served and got into places i never usually do PROUD MUCH!

anyways minus my hangover i had a pretty good sunday , but i don't think going to kids party with your head already banging like a drum is the best hangover cure!

and i am so proud of leyla it's actually unreal!, she had a lot of bloody balls to tell her mam all that stuff!, her blog made me cry this morning but that was for other reasons still i am not angry at her for posting it (:

" It's A Long Road When You Face The World Alone" - Mariah Carey

just dance

i am getting ready to go out tonight it should be good i just wanna drink forget last nights fb messages! , i went to bed in a right mood with myself and woke up in a worse one :( which isn't like me at all!

still i was right about him not liking me , he likes someone else as well i was gutted with a captial G.

this is all i am going to post now byeee! x

it's friday i'm in love

thought i had swine flu cause i had 3 of the symptoms and someone at college apprantley has it bad times. also today i had double film it was canny we watched this film called kids and me and leyla were the only people in the class who actually liked it ahahha!

oh and i got told that i might i have to rearrange my timetable i was like this shoulda been sorted before the start of term ffs seriously college is a joke , but i did get paid my ema! good times :D

atm i watching derren brown i ain't doing the event tonight as i am confused by it, oh and i cant think of lyrics for tonights post :(

a dream , a laugh , a kiss , a cry

well today was actually canny i had some cracking banter in media we watched east is east i love that film it never gets old! ahaha i find george's (the father in the film) voice a crease cause he can't say stupid or bastard properly he misses the d off the end ahaha i was amused was a while.

also we have started our c.w. in film it's a reapeat performance of last year for me cos i just can't seem to get on with my work in class i think thats mainly cos i have a fair few amount of people i get on with, and i couldn't do la haine as my compartive for social context because we are looking at it more in depth for our exam.

oh and saturday should be bloody interestang me, friends & drink goooooood times :D

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ahh i am into the cure a lot atm i may have a few songs but the lyrics are beautiful especially friday i'm in love i love that song tbh! it has sentimental value as well, i have the nme awards and my friend emma to thank for letting me discover them.

anyways i have just realised i haven't done my personal statement fuck it i'll do it on saturday before i go out, speaking of saturday it should be amazing like all of my nearest and dearest are coming out so it should be good crack :)

also i hope leyla and will do get together she deserves someone nice :)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSmfNxmaQHc





"for one moment then we understood it all" - The Garden By Take That

thinking much

just realised i have nothing going for me , however there is one lad i like but i think he only likes me as a friend we get on stuff and have a laugh plus he's lovely but honsetly i don't think i have a chance!

well today at college i had double media which always drags plus the teacher i get on a tuesday is a complete knob he never shuts the fuck up i know it's his job and stuff but seriously no need to repeat yourself about 6 times argh plus my lessons aren't as fun as they used to be in AS i think thats cos i have hardly anyone who i sat with in my class bad times!

still on the brightside i'll be getting my £60 EMA on friday hopefully cos i need it for my brothers birthday present and sat considering i will have leave at 10 which kinda sucks! still my Dad could have said no to me going out all together.

"i'm lover i'm brother a son i'm a traitor and i'm on the run " - The Man's Machine Jamie T

before tele gets good!

i wish i could put myself "out there" i may act like a cocky confident shit but trust me i am far from it! plus n-dubz have a new song out i heard the preview yesterday and it sounded pretty good so i have yet to download it or hear it in full, still atm i am sat watching the friday night project it's one of the old ones with kayne west stilll it's one of my favourite ones.

anyways rock of love is on in a few i love that show as well it just like any other mtv show tbh but still i am a sucker for trashy tv. oh and i just realised tomorrow i have to get the bus on my own tomorrow bad times it wouldn't be so bad if armies of kids actually sat in seats instead of making a pile up on the bus when people are trying to get off!

well i am off now to update my ipod ahh i love that thing it's my baby called edwardo ;)
goooood na ni night!

" the children are the future their drowing in the flood" - where did all the love go by kasabian

Greetangs

hello bloggers :)

i am new to this both of my friends on this so i thought hey why don't i jump on the bandwagon!
anyways last night i went to see tinchy stryder it was pretty good minus the under agers and unreal amount of slaggy wags, still i was quite pleased that leyla agreed to come as she usually doesn't like english music.
still today i went to college like any other monday it wasn't that bad actually people usually say mondays are shit but i disagree, however i did have double english and i had to pretend to be a 3 year old, yes my english teacher is weird!
anyway i am going to see wether i can keep this up i hope i do :)

also i want to add lyrics at the end of every post!

" Cradle to the grave, I know we always misbehave" - Sticks N Stones by Jamie T