Mmmmmm

I don't remember much from last night but i am not hungover so thats gooooood, but i was reading before on facebook and leyla said that i pulled a 34 year old lmafo :')

i didn't kiss him though cos of his teeth were missing ahahah still i think he has my number oh dear :| still i think thats all i did i honsently can't remember someone needs to tell me wtf happend!

Still Dean's going to wales today for a week i'm gunna miss talking to him on msn imagine when he goes away for goood! Still atleast he knows that i like him and i said we should do something sometime and he said yeah so yay :D

Ahhh i'll post later on when i find out what happend! :)

hoping for the best but expecting the worst

well yesterday was alright apart from my dad shouting at me for just about everything i was like stfu i cba with this , plus i was shattered so that didn't help , but last years xmas presents came yesterday from switzerland i couldn't complain tbh i got a small eastpack back pack it's nice and i got i diary i NEVER use them so y'know it weren't that bad.

then i left my grans to go to my other grans she had bought me ben & jerry's i was like mmmm she even got the right one as well, then i came back home sat and waited for the x factor the completely wrong people went it shoulda been lloyd arrrgggh he's so shit he's only cos lasses fancy him which is wrong!

after this i talked to leyla and you know who it was a pretty full on conversation but it was gooood man i swear he is just so easy to talk to about anything the conversation was filthy as well but filithy is gooood i was people i know could be more open about it really it's just me and leyla who talk about stuff like this and alice on ocassions still was good cos know one said ergh or anything so that was pretty cool.

oh and before i had just spent 4 hours on cleaning my room serious i had no idea how filthy it was i should really clean it atleast once a week now. so now i just need to hoover the stairs and have a shower but i really can't be fudged to move ahhaah cleaning really takes it out of me ahhaha!

currently though i am watching this stuff about take that on 4music ahhhh brings back memories of june when i saw them live omg it was the best thing i have seen ever it was just amazing!! i can't wait for the dvd next month i have it pre-odered! ahahahahah :)

but your hair's too short and your jeans are too tight

i am sat watching the x factor atm i looooove it this year minus lloyd, joe & rachael but apart from that everyone is cush i looooooove jamie archer though mmm he's a babe ;) plus his voice is just WOOOOW!

well nowt much happened today i was meant to be going out but no things fucked up argh people must learn to use mobile phones ffs! , so for a few hours i was just sat in my room on my xbox and watching the tele cos i am coool.

oh and i can't go to london next week cos my dad says i am not "mature" enough there may be a element of truth in that but i would be with leyla she's responsible and shizz meeer so i feel bad that she can't go argh! no one trusts me to go anywhere honsetly ah it's gay! still fuck it.

also my brother was being a little shit today seriously he can't shut the fuck up it's likeee argh as if my day hasn't already been fudged up enough i know he's only 8 but still he should learn to bloody behave in public!

ahhhh and today i only got to talk to a certain someone but only for a few minutes but he did seem gutted that he had to go so i left a tad special LOL! , but he said the nicest thing ever it was something like: " you are interesting you have a good personality and a good sense of humour" i was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwww! no one has ever said that to me before yeah i just smiled typing that! ahahhahhahaha :')

oh and next friday i have the option to go get mortal get in i'm going to take it and make a tit out of myself as per oh yessa roll on next friday! just need to gather the funds ahahahaaha!

then i set fire to our bed

honestly i don't think i have ever thought so much about one little thing like ever! well then again it's not really little or is it ahh idk but all i do know as why do people decide oh liv ramsey is doing something i'll just do the same cos you know not as if liv has over came a lot within like 3-4 weeks.

ahh i hate waiting i swear it just seems to go slower argh!
but do you know what all this is all new to me and that makes this harder so yeah there's all that as well!

but you know what the funny thing is idk wether she knows i like him but you know if she does thats just wrong of you to do that sorry pet but it just is!

ARGH! I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS!

come on lets fly!

well today i was up at 7 to meet leyla and emma to catch the bus to town as we were going on a film trip to northumbria uni eee my life out tour guide man was hiliarse he was ginger and irish and couldn't say journal properly i found it impossible to keep a straight face. eee then we had to look for books according to our c.w. subject so i left leyla down a isle thing with davey ahaha she wasn't amused in the slightest ahahaha!

after this we tried to go get a photocopying card thang but they had none left which was a tad of a fail as that was the purpose of thee trip ahahaha then i just sat down with nikki , sarah , david and darren and leyla was sat behind it was good crack!, then at 11 me leyla and niiki went to mcdonalds cos me and nikki fancied one ahaha! then we went to greggs with leyla.

then we got on the bus back to college it was cush i felt i bit giddy ahahah! think it was to do with the food oh then we had to go see our form teacher to see that we were in then someone was looking for david so he's kinda dead man walking lmafo! after this i seen the lad i like which was weird cos he said that he wouldn't be in ahahaha but he said something about him meeting his mate so that was okay. but one of his friends who he sits with kept giving me death stares cos she likes him too i was like i haven't done anything so TURN THE FUCK AROUND! ahahhaahah :')

oh and after college me and leyla went to town to go to newcastle libary cos we are cool but we ended up in hmv buying mr hudson albums then we walked to reflex and mr hudson was coming out of monument i swear leyla has the knack for spotting the celebs like we always see them before gigs and signings usually ahahah!, then we went to relflex they didn't have any mr hudson singles so we trekked to find an indie music shop to if they had anything but they didn't so bad times!

then we stood inside and waited for like 15 or 20 minutes and waited for him to get to us in the q then leyla was first she got her album signed for will i was like awwwwwwwwwww so she didn't get anything signed but she did get a picture! , then it was my turn i asked for my album to made out to olivia i always do that when famous people ask who it should be made out to he said to me oh thats a beautiful name and on my way out he said bye my darling i was like :D :D :D :D

oh and just before i found out that the lad i like is going travelling and isn't coming back! but i did ask him to come out with me sometime and he said yes so i was like! :D :D :D :D :D ahhhhh i am so happy happy! eeeeeeee :')

LONGEST BLOG EVER! :D & TIM MINCHIN IS ON JONATHAN ROSS TONIGHT GET OUT SON! ahahahah!

:D :D

i don't think i have ever been so happy like ever! ahhhhhhhhhh i have leyla to thank for this well i was on msn before and i was talking to the lad i like and leyla was helping me play 20 questions so i asked him a fair few and then he asked me some but there was one question i was dreding and he asked it so like i said to him i will answer every question honsently and then leyla said go on just say you, so i did then he asked me why and everything and i just said how i felt ahahahah.

so yeah today was alreeeeeeeet like media was just funny as fuck jane was just sat glancing at her pack thing for italy and i said something about dolimo sauce and we just sat and pissed ourselves for ages i went purple lmafo :') then before medi ai had english eeeeee my god it was funny we had to draw and mine and alice's looked as if 6 year oids could have done them i wish i had took a picture of mine it was just so bad.

oh and i have blood on my jacket but idk what the fuck was bleeding to get the blood on my jacket! and tonight is the best night for tele i reckon just simply because never mind the buzzcocks is on :D ahahahahahaahahahahahah!

oh i am still HAPPY thanks for everything leyla!
x

safety pins holding up the things that make you mine

i never update this EVERY day i really should anyways since i last posted not much as really happend tbh well yesterday i went to a elliot minor signing they have changed so fucking much bad times. they didn't even recognise me they usually do but never mind!

anyways today i didn't get up till quarter to 11 i felt so lazy! still i enjoy sleeping in now i never used to when i was younger. then i managed to be ready by quarter past 11 then i just went on facebook like i usually do then i left the house for about 20 to 12 to catch the 10 to metro.

then i had tutorial it was alreet actually minus people knowing i fancy and making it a tad obvious i was so embrassed ahahaha i never usually get embrassed tbh ahaha i am so shameless it's unreal. well my tutor said today that i could do a maths course cos i kinda need it for my career so me and the lad i fancy are in the same class and he said it was awesome when we were in the same class i felt really good about myself ahahah!

after tutorial me, leyla and olliee walked to the bus stop eee it was too funny cos olliee is on crutches and watching her go downstairs is a howl ahaha :') still she seen the funny side so it was alreeet plus it was raining and she nearly tripped over my shoe so yeah.

then i came home watched a bit of tim minchins documentary called rock and roll nerd online but it kept crashing thats why i hate watching things online it's a piss take! ahaha still it's interestang the documentary it goes on about how he used to do small small shows and how he got famous it's pretty inspiring so hopefully someone will be loosh and buy me it for xmas! ..... HIYA LEYLA ahahah!

yeah that was basically my whole day!

breathing in , breathing out the same

today was alreeeet actually i had double english first which i hate with a passion but second lesson was actually goooood :) me and alice sat and had a heart to heart sort of it was nice. oh and then i had a free so i went to shields with alice , emma , laurie and naliah it was alright we just went to get food but i like my walk into shields on a monday it relaxes me after being in a classroom for 2 whole hours.

then i had film but it was cancelled i was pretty bummed by that as i was one of the few people who actually bothered to do their essay like i mean a page is barely a stress and these people say "oh i love film" what a load of bullshit the only person who seems passionate enough about it is leyla and a few others. but then me , leyla , emma and louise went on our way to tesco was cush me and leyla had one of our heart to hearts so that was gooood i am serious she is like gok wan and therapist rolled into one i love that have someone just to tell all my shit to and then she'll help.

ooooooh and it is nealry xmas so i am excited considering i know what i am getting off the majority of my relations! still i am like a little kid ahahahahahaah!

don't you wish you ment something to somebody else

today an episode of only fools and horses get me thinking it's the one where the grandad dies and rodney says something to del boy then his reply was just a list of everything he was and matched exactly what i am like good/bad times.

well i didn't blog yesterday cos i was shattered well first i had double film i am enjoying the film it's called the green mile, then after that some woman came into tutorial and rambled on about UCAS and personal statements and what not ahahahaah. then after that i had media we finished watching somers town it was actually goood and i understood that the film was just one big advert for the eurostar considering thats all Marek's Dad talks about so yeah i felt pretty clever.

oh and ashie told me last night that tim minchin was going to be on jonathan ross next friday so that should be goooooooood! she thinks we'll get mentioned cos we behaved like tits in front of him i would actually piss myself laughing if we did. also it was his birthday when we saw him so yeah i bet thats a birthday he'll never forget ahaha!

and i just realised i haven't checked my bank this week so i'll do that on monday and on tuesday i am going to an elliot minor signing with leyla should be goood fun saying as she is missing out on the gig in november still i'll get her some shizz signed cos i am lovely.

finally emma i loved my friends thing you wrote about me it was beautiful!

cos i got too much life running through my veins going to waste

today was actually pretty funny especially media ahahah we had to write about a representation about ourself then the people next to us had to write one about us eee it was a crease hosently apprantley old gregg is my cousin 3 times removed lmafo :'), also me and leyla had one of our bit serious convos i like them it's gooood that i can talk to her about literally anything and she doesn't find it disturbing at all eeeeee i love that i can do that and hope she feels the same ahaha :)

then we had film eeee i swear i do nothing on c.w. day it's just erghhh! so then i sat for an hour and wrote like 5 bullet points waheeey! , also this morning i used the radio to listen to something other than music i know shock horror :O still i was pretty chuffed that i tuned into the right station ahhhhh then after waiting for what seemed ages tim minchin was finally on the radio it was a pretty good interview tbh.

oh and leyla sneezed on my jacket i was like cheers! ahaha we were creased for ages!, oh and tomorrow in media we are watching Somers Town i haven't even watched my own dvd in the house! still i like shane meadows films they are quality so goood times.

OH AND I LOVE THIS VIDEO ATM HIS VOICE IS AMAZING! he should just go on the x factor or something!

wew!

well today i had like a massiveee free till like 1 so i woke up at 10 so that wasn't to bad i guess then sat and watched tele went on facebook did a entry on here and such! just cos i can ahahah.

then at around about 20 to 11 i left the house to go to the bus stop seriously i take forever when i am not in a rush waited for the 17 but showed no signs of coming so i just decided get to the metro i LOLED when i seen a man with a bottle of wkd tucked into his bit solid coat!

when i got to college leyla and emma were already in hysterics when i arrived , then i gave leyla my heat magazine she wanted it for john and edward off the x factor i nealry pissed myself when i found out that their surnames were grimes lmafo idk why it was so funny though.

then i had tutriol i usually leave after about 10 minutes well not even that ahahaha! so i stayed for the majority of the lesson and pissed about with leyla about foundations and make-up and stuff ahahaha she is such a distraction then i nealry took my ankle off on the metal thang i was like owwwwwww seriously it hurt! ahaha

oh and today was a week since i seen tim minchin ahh i miss it it was such a good show man he got 2 standing obvations and it was his birthday i swear he was nealry crying at the standing obvations i was like awwwwwwwwwww!

i think this is the longest blog i have written tbh PROUD MUCH?

where she'll stops nobody knows

yeah i am sat in bed atm mmmm i is lazy but i got up at 10 today i don't have a lesson til like or something still i go in for dinner so i can see all my mates and have a bitta banter with them ahhh i love them all!

oh and today is a week since i seen and met tim minchin, and it's a week since leyla & will got together so yeah this wednesday is a special one LOL :') , well it's even more special for leyla but never mind bless her!, she's like really happy i don't think i have seen her so happy so it's all gooooooood!

anyways i best make a move shortly i cba to do this statement anymore but at least i have done something!

:)

ahhh i feel much better tonight than last night thank god! ergh last night was rank ahahaha! :') still i am over it!

anyways today i started my personal statement then all i need to do is get the plp thing from college then do that then hopefully i'll be caught up!

ah media was actually alreet the day minus the fact that i didn't finish my work still i'll hand it in next lesson!

oh and davey apologised to me today about being insensitive yesterday bless him he proper ment it as well i was like awww.

on a brighter note i am proper obessed with tim minchin i blame ashie, plus he's a babe i don't care wether he his a wife and 2 kids i just would ahahahah!

meh

it depressess me that that so called mingers have bf's!
wtf is wrong with me! serious well actually don't answer this
i know this is gunna sound cheesey but i want someone who will love me for who i am and what they want me to be!

still i have a feeling the above will never happen!
merrrrrrr :(

i know you want me

today was a crease as my first 2 lessons were cancelled so me, alice and david went on a walking mission from college to a graveyard to morrisons then to tesco. me and alice both bought magazines from morrisons then i bought i bag of fruit gums mmmm i love them! , then david wanted to go to tesco cos i wnated his chocolate milk thingy but it weren't there so i made him buy frigi he drank half then i drank the majority of the other half but it was sickly. then we got back to college and i put tim minchin on for david he thought he was funny but then i put canvas bags on for alice but the special people came over so we left amigos.

after that we found laurie and we all went shields and took the piss outta david for friday ahahaahahha! we were creased for ages, then we got back waited for leyla then we all sat with emma and louise. then we had film i swear i was going to bloody scream in that lesson as the teacher was was asking everyone what specific part in the film was emotional for them i felt like saying "FUCK OFF" but luckily he didn't ask me what bit did!

so yeah it was a canny day today!
:D

rough as

i went to an 18th last night and i was drunk as but i can't remember anything now i am paying for it big time. AAHAHA i must have made a reet tit outta myself still i do that when i haven't had a drink!

oh and yesterday i kinda lost it with one of my friends that is because i had such a shit day doesn't really help when your film teacher asks " what films can you relate to?" and i could hardly say ones about cancer and people loosing their mothers so i lied and said no. also in english we looked at this women's emails things she wrote before she died of cancer as well i felt like saying " CAN I JUST LEAVE!" so instead i sat there and hid my mouth with my scarf instead ahaha! so yeah after all that everything was just getting less bearable so yeah thats why i lost it everything was just building up inside! i hope you can forgive me!

x

AHHHH!

omg my auntie has bought me noel fielding tickets for xmas you will never ever understand how excited i am ahaha! eee he's my idol , style icon and inspiration :) i really really hope i meet him :D

and last night i saw and met tim minchin ee he was so funny i remember watching him on the tele ages ago he was funny last night mind i though my lungs were gunna fall out my side lmafo! oh and me and ashie made such tits outta of ourselves ahaha we never fail to i remember the time that me , leyla and ashie saw jason donovan eeeee that was hiliarse!

oh and i am pleased for leyla! she has found someone who seems lovely she deserves it her other relationships were a tad weird ahaha forgive me leyla ahahahah!

oh and never mind the buzzcocks is on in a few!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh gonna be good hopefully!

LMAFO!

eeee i can hear my gran singing through the door lmafo let's face it she ain't no beyonce ahahaah!

today i have like the shortest day of college i go in at quarter to 1 and leave 10 mins after my lesson starts but i am catching up on work at home so it's not like i am falling behind! and after that i have to meet ashie in town cos we is going to see wor tim minchin eee so glad i gots invited to go (:

oh and i am sure i have an obession with noel fielding again mmmmmmm he's a babe plus he has the nicest personality EVER! bless him i hope one day i meet him.

after this post i may do thattop ten celebrities thing which leyla did :)
OH LEYLA GOOOOOOOD LUCK! ;) you sexay beast :P ;)

wake up calls are getting boring around here

today was rather funny tbh by that i mean media emily said something about jay-z being a powerful figure in the black community it was one of them you had to be there jokes tbf eee still i was creased for ageeeeeeeeees! and i got totally dissed for my taste in men lmafo bless is not my fault i go for a bitta facial hair! ;)

oh and tomorrow i am going to see tim minchin it's gunna be gooooooooooooood :D
sorry this post is short my day really wasn't that goooood ahah!

live at the apollo

ee i love that show this one is one of my favourites like michael mcintyre is just amazing!
oh and the graham norton show is back on tonight :D with sharon and ozzy osbourne! should be good crack cos ozzy is just off his rocker lol!

oh and today at college alice wa sso hyper it was funny it certainly made english a crease aahaha! and me and emma went for milkshakes in thortons they were nice i had a mint choc chip one twas looosh!

also i have rekindled my love for noel fielding it never really went away like but i was watching interviews of him & the rest of the boosh in america and i was like mmmm, but he also has a nice personality and he's pretty generous as well his agency sent me a signed card and some dvd's which is being held in memory of my mother. i must thank him after the event!

plus i need to get more prizes for this event! atm i trying to get in contact with mark owen's agent i hope i get something take that related aahaha!

anyways i am going shortly cos well monday is usually good tele night ahahah!
x

ain't posted in a bit!

well today i was in cheltenham it was goooood crack and the people there are so stuck up lmafo! :') , oh and me , leyla and her dad sat in 2 lectures one was digital film and the other was film studies ooooft the teacher teaching film studies was a babe i swear! mmmmm.

also one of the films we began to watch in the digital film lecture was pretty good but we had to leave halfway through bad times!

and the woman in KFC couldn't speak i was like wtf it was like i was somewhere else for a moment and then i watched derren brown i was creased when the bloke was in a trance i was like wow :O but then he got his number thing wrong on the roullete wheel so he was just a bit GUTTED!

oh and i have ate so much today ahahaha! and the lass from essex has to go through on the x factor bless her!

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