i have so much to tell you

friends thing sorry if i offend!

Leyla- i love how smart you are , and how when i have a probelm i can come to you straight away no matter what the time is , i love how open you are with everything and how we can talk about everything and anything, i like how we have meet each others families and how we class each other as family as well as best friends, we've been through the good the bad and the worse. Also i like how we have been on loads of holidays together with our families i really enjoy them, finally i love how the majority of people think we are twins lmafo :')

Emma- i love that you aren't afraid to show emotions i wish i could be like that when you cried at the boy in stripped pj's i was like i wish i could cry at something like that. Also i like that you recommend me music which i usually wouldn't listen to on a day to day basis. However i don't like it when we fall out over silly things.

Alice- i have only known you a year but jesus christ it feels like more , i like how we can tell each other pretty much anything. However i don't like that you rarely come out on nights out and stuff.

Laurie- i have known you for a year and i like how we are friends but i can't help thinking that i don't really know a lot about you.

Ashie- i love that when we do see each other which aint very often we have a whale of a time , like when we met tim minchin and went to that shields festival and just made reet tits out of ourselves.

Louise- you have changed so much even i have begin to notice, you rarely talk to me anymore wtf did i do wrong apart from get stabbed in the fucking back by you and your fucking lies.

David- i like how funny you are and how we sit and talk about random babble and make up the best chat up lines ahahaha.

Dean- i have got to know a canny bit about you over the past 3 months, and we have only just starting talking face to face for not that long, but then all that just stopped things got awakward i didn't want to ask about her because i didn't want to seem to obessive, still fuck it, i just want things to go back to how they were , but they won't cos you have left college and shit now, and you won't see this thank god!

Nadine- i like how you have just returned back into my life , it takes me back to the times we had in food tech and year 11 they were good times.

soon we'll fall too pieces

just finished watching last week's never mind the buzzcocks ee it was funny , shame i always forget that it's on a wednesday but i have remembered this week! well a canny bit has happended in the last 5 days on saturday i seen elliot minor for the 16th time ahahah and saw my mates from darlo ahh i don't like the fact is the only time i see them is at gigs which is at least 4 times a year or something daft we have amazing banter. after the gig we waited for them but we didn't know that they were inside so we were outside in the freezing cold and ali didn't stop to sign anything so leyla was a tad gutted but i met alex for the like 9 millionth time ahhh he's lovely i remember once i was ill at one of their gigs i was 15 i think and i had to come home but i came back and got pulled pver the barrier inside because i thought i was gunna puke but afterwards alex asked me if i was okay now i was like eh how did you know i was ill?

anyways today was good i came in at 20 to 1 and leyla asked me to buy her some chocolate so i did , then she made a tower of bottles and put my can at the top and it fell and fizzed all over the shop ahaha it was quite funny tbh. then after dinner i had tutorial all 10 mins of it then i walked into shields with naliah and jill to get the metro which didn't take as long as it usually does. oh and today dean got his nails painted i was like lmafo your more of a woman than me, things have been a bit off with him but idk why we just don't talk like we used to it's weird still he talked to me today so it's all gooood :)

oh and my back has been playing up it really hurts i may have to take some pain killers later on if it gets much worse. i may post a picture blog later on because i haven't done one before!

i'm running outta words to make you stay

well this week has been rather up and down i have been tired nearly everyday i am having weird dreams and have started remembering things about when my mam died i don't like it cos i think it's not real and that she's gunna come through the door again, then i realise that she isn't, yeah i just cried typing this.

well enough of why i can't sleep at night , i am currently watching children in need seriously some of the stories are awww but others are like wtf there's people who are worse off and don't get the help they need. oh and i am talking to dean he's been rather off with me this week he siad he has been busy this week , still it was awkward when i chatted to him on msn on tuesday he was pissed off at something so i think i kinda added petrol to his fire then. still it's cush now.

ooooooo and last night i was in bed watching alan carr chatty man NOEL FIELDING was on it i was like omg seriously two of my comedy heroes sat talking to each other i was WOW WOW WOW plus Noel is cool he likes to kiss men when he's drunk but he won't go any further it was funny how he explained it with his hand like i'll have to pop a clip up! it was so goooooooooood honsently :')

today was okay minus english my teacher hates me i seem to be the only person that gets wrong for laughing no one else just me i am like wtf! ooo she boils my piss at times still alice keeps me entertained ahaha! oh and my maths just seems to be getting worse honsently i wouldn't be suprised if a 12 year old could do thw work i had to do today honsently i hate maths i go all tense when someone mentions it.

aww i can't find a clip :( but when i find one i'll post it :)

destiny is calling me.

ah today was alreet like my granny spent £96 quid on clothes for me and she bought me foundation which was really expensive i was like say what : , plus my granny said all this stuff about my mam she said that she doesn't like other people talking about her i was like awww, there's only certain people i can talk to my mam about.

last night was a tad awkward to say the least but i had a few drinks so that was okay i guess, and leyla made me ask louise all these questions ahaha my excuse was that i was drunk and vunerable, but what i didnt understand was why did she take those pictures on leyla's camera i thought that was a tad odd, oh and i barley talked to dean i was a tad gutted meh fuck it things will be next week hopefully.

oh and i am so so so so so bored i want a night out! like really badly i love a bit of drunken goings on in town last time i went out it was good ahahaah pulling a 34 year old and all that jazz :') gave me so much confidence i swear man ahahhahaaahaahahha!

ergh and i realised tomorrow is sunday which means i have double english first thing bad times oh and atm i am watching star stories i love that show :') it's the kate moss one which features johnny depp it's a piss take though but still mmmmmm depp is a babe :P can't wait till xmas i'm getting public enemies and a take that book off my granny :')

anyways i am going to keep on top of this this week oooft that sounded naughty TWANG!

i've been negleting this big time :|

well not a lot has happend since saturday i don't think! well on monday i had double english which is a joke tbh i hate i hate the lesson this year and we gto our assignments back i was hoping to reach at least double figures but no i just got one mark higher than last time i was like FFS! it's like everytime i do try it's bloody good enough! , oh then i had film , i like film minus half the class but we were watching a clockwork orange so it's all good , it's odd though because i have only seen the begining and the end until watching it in class.

on tuesday i had double media and i could just not be arsed to work so i basically sat and talked to emily about jermey kyle and amazing it is ahaha :') , then leyla texted me to get a time for parents evening for her i was like leyla forgot to get a time for film :O :O :O i was shocked ahahah :'), then i had tutorial it was alreet like i sat with leyla and alice on he computers and mucked around ahaha!

yesterday was like the funniest day i have had i think ahahah i came in at half 12 ish so i could have dinner with the crew! after dinner we went to the computers and me, leyla , emma and david were nattering about the last time we went out i was like mmmm i remember that was rather embrassing ahahah :'), then it was tutorial dean kept looking at me i was like mmm hello ;) then i had to stay back for a bit too see about this maths course so i stayed and rambled on to dean about shite ahahaha was good crack like eeeee he makes me laugh ahaha!, then we went to meet alice's friend nathan who calls himself verity bee he asked us to go do this shoot upstairs in the photography class everyone was pressuing me to go first ahaha. i wa slike i'll do it if someone goes before me so laurie went first and did her bit stuff, then it was me honsently i wasn't used to the lights it was boiling! still it was okay i think i was just a tad nervous which isn't like me at all!, oh and btw verity is a bit nice ;)

oh and today i have connexions meeting and i haven't done what i was suspposed to i'll do it now ahaha :')

good friends, well you can count them on one hand.

well my week has been rather good tbh i feel tuesday was the best day this week for obvious reasons! and yesterday was okay i thought the charity night was rather good i like people buying drinks for me means i spend as little money as possible. oh and yesterday other girl who likes dean found out that i like him so i was like oh fuck still can't help who you like we just happen to like the same person which is a tad complicated.

oh and last night i won a loada gear i won 2 bath set things, a haircut and a meal for 2 at the linidisfarne ahaha i wanted the vodka ahaha mmm i do love vodka and other alcohol related products blates not gunna have the liver of pete doherty by the time i'm 25!

and today i need to go to byker to get ink for my printer so i can photovopy my annotated lyric sheets for my c.w. for monday's english lesson so i can think of a hypothesis for my c.w. i only just thought of a question a fortnight ago : mm i blates ain't gunna fail this year but it's okay i'm not going to uni till 2011 cos i had a meeting with this bloke cos i honsently want to do this mental health nursing he was blates trying to put me off it the stupid bastard. seriously i hate connexions it was like happend in year 10 with tracey mell she blates just told me i couldn't do what i wanted to do because i was too thick. so yeah i hate connexions :)

anyways i'm gunna go get dressed and be on my way i'll post later no doubt!

i feel as if

i haven't posted on here in a bit i am sorry followers anyways today was okay i had double english i had to hand my essay which is 200 words off the word limit i hope i have improved on the last one cos i got 2/24 : bad times still i hate the lesson i have no interest in it anymore.

then after the first lesson of english me and alice sat in amigos cos it was break so we sat and talked about dean and stuff cos the other lass who likes keeps on giving me dirty looks i'm like "I'VE DONE NOTHING WRONG" gaaah the sooner she realises this the bloody better.

after english me, alice , emma and laurie went to shields to get bus passes and food and what not then we went to the co-op i bought heat magazine THE TORSO OF THE WEEK IS GERARD BUTLER YUM :P then we went back to college cos we are cool then leyla joined some shortly after that.

then i had film it was alreet i enjoyed the film mind i found tom hanks rather attractive in it i was like mmmmmm he looked well nice tbh :P still he's old but only when he's in the green mile he looks attractive ahahah! still i said days funny and leyla and april pure nealry wet themselves ahahaha ;)

i'll post later on cos my fingers are going cold ahaha!